very very tired. emotionally and physically.

not really sure what i want. the more i talk about it, discuss with pple around me, soughting advice from pple, the more confused i get. i know for sure is i want out. but is it really the correct time for me to be out of this job. or i am just being superstitious? would i really get the job within the month as predicted?

i wanted to study, i wanted to change job, i wanted to do sales, and now i wanted to go into general management. whoever has heard me talk about my career goals since the beginning would definitely have come to the conclusion that i'm a small little brat not knowing what to do, and whatever i'm talking about doing are just some ideas instilled into me after i've them.

argh. so fed up. i just need some time to sit down and think about what i want. is it really what i want?? can i really leave the job now that i'm here and that it is looking promising, my future job scope.

just an hour ago, don talked to me, most of the jobs now are vacancies that are either hard to occupy or really bad positions thats why pple cannot tahan longer and decide to leave now. best time is 2 months later. when more pple are moving out of their zones and venturing into new job vacancies. that would then be the time. ... is it really so? i wonder....

why do i so want to be out fo the company? cause i'm really tired of the job. i'm too lax, too left alone, and i don't really like doing lab work. i do for the sake of doing!!!!sigh. who can help me on this??